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Friday, July 23, 2010
YOU'RE NOT THERE ANYMORE:( we're drifting further and further apart. long time no blog. since i got nothing to do... shall have a simple post. yep. school's been really busy. and i've lesser and lesser time for myself and for you guys. homework, lab reports, presentation, blahblahblah. simply have no time for revision. or rather. when i have time, i rather catch some sleep than revise my work. haha! and i have lesser and lesser time spent with you. anyways.. this has been bothering me for quite a few years. hmmm... its not really disturbing me, but it sets me thinking. or rather, it made me want to meet you in real life somehow. it might just be my imagination, it might just be some false hope i've created for myself. but in that dream, its seems real. was super super happy, until i wake up and find out that everything isnt there. its just that.. whenever i feel that no one's there for me, whenever im sad/frustrated/stress til a certain limit, this dream would definitely appear. the same dream. ever since young. i want to know who that person is. i really want to find that person out. i dont know how to start describing the dream. so i cant really tell you what happen in it. but it's definitely the sweetest thing that ever happened to me. although you're not there with me in real life, but you seem to know everything that is happening in my life. everytime i feel like no one will be there for me, you'll definitely pop out in my dream, to remind me that you'll always be there for me. (i dont think anyone is still reading my blog, but some people might just... accidently? come to my blog and read this post? i dont know?) anyways. i understand that some people might tell me its some psychological thingy that i've created for myself. or maybe even crappier? my previous life? or whatever crap. but it seems so real. whatever la.. i dont even know what im typing ok? haha! just let me rant here a little longer. i just like the feeling. even if its created by my own psychological thoughts. to know that someone out there still cares for me. will still be by my side. forever:) if i were to meet you in real life, somehow.. all i've got to tell you is "thanks for being in my dream, to cheer me up, to be there for me when no one else is. and i know its not normal for me to say this, but i really love you:)" oh.. and.. somehow that "person" in my dream reminded me of this song. and when i woke up, i played and replyed it continuosly. thanks alot:) its in my itouch by x factor finalist? you are not alone. went to google for the lyrics and found out that it was originally by michael jackson. the lyrics are uber meaningful. that makes me love you more:) but like i said. it might be just a psycological thing that i've created by myself to make myself feel better. and. fyi. IM NOT CRAZY. IM A NORMAL TEENAGER WHO IS JUST ENCOUNTERING LOADS OF DIFFICULTIES IN MY LIFE. so.. yep. im not mentally retarded, im not crazy, i dont have any needs of seeing a doctor or whatever crap. =.=
so sweet right? haha! never mind.. i should stop fantasizing whoever this is and move on with life:) anyways. this is just a thought. and i think i should share it with you people. once again.. im not overly stressed or crazy or whatsoever. like a bitch. when your school reopens, you continued talking to me. no matter how busy you are. no matter how much friends you've made. once my school starts. we're talking lesser and lesser. now, we hardly even talk. im sorry:( i tried talking to you nowadays. but it aint the same no more. you wouldnt reply me. i know its my fault to not cherish you from the start. im really really sorry:( Sunday, May 02, 2010 no time for you:( but you're there when i need you:) decided to post for awhile. busy busy busy. practically got no time for everyone now. haiz. seriously.. i need my holiday. i need my weekends. i need to rest. i think im stressing myself too much. but theres nothing i can do about it. hopefully my timetable will change next semester. yep. thats all. all that i can wish is for time to return and go back to primary school or secondary school. people out there.. treasure your time in pri/sec school. i sumpa you'll miss it:) short post. bye! boy, you're still the best to me:) Sunday, March 28, 2010 THANK YOU! for making me smile. =) here to thank all of you for making a effort to wish me! xie xie ni men! i really dont know what to say anymore. hmmm.. i shant list out. you should know who you are, those who wished me. special thanks to those who went out with me to celebrate my birthday. shall dedicate a few paragraphs to all of you. =) i know you since kindergarden! haha! you and your mushroom head. LOL! thanks for TRYING to organise my birthday party. you're flying off to seoul today. now. on my birthday. T.T haha! anyways. thanks for the listening ear to hear me kp this and that. thanks for asking people to come along. thanks for the fun time we had together. (*deletes the bad memories if there are any*) and many many more that i've missed out due to stm... haha! thanks for coming on tuesday even though you have work and doesnt like sakae. although i really got to know you like.. in the middle of sec 3? thanks for everything. walking home together.. crapping, do crazy stuffs.. EVERYTHING. and then i forgot what i wanted to type already. haha! hello weiting! haha! its so cool to find someone with the same name la! haha! thanks for being there, although there were lots of misunderstanding long long time ago. haha! from sitting together to disiao the teachers when we're in sec 2, til studying together in sec 4. to be there when things happen. to be there when at happy times. =) smile as we go into a new school. to our dream course. to our new future. may we meet in the society (to laugh at each other in weird looking clothes) when we graduate. haha! *ahem* shall not disiao you here. LOL! the super super blur vivian that loves winnie the pooh and have got too much money to spend and decide to buy me lots of things like (crumpler, bags, famous amos, *cant remember the rest*.....) but ended up not buying anything for me. YET. lolz. treat me to a super nice meal at crystal jade. (thinks she got too much money, give her she dont want) bought me a slice of cake which im too full to stuff in. bringing me to the rooftop garden to have our secret meeting. o.O being a "good" host at her house by treating me to eat maggi mee, and not giving me a toothbrush to brush my teeth. (LOL!) blahblahblah. and this is like.. what? 3 days? and it goes way back to p5 when we 1st became friends..... THANKS ________(please fill it in yourself vivian! LOL!!!) yes yes yes. i know you want the longest one. so i'll give you a super duper long one here. haha! here goes.... remember the time when we first met? "eeyer! who the hell is she??" "eeyer! why ms liew separate me from all my friends? im so... not talking to them!" and then it goes to "she think she very funny is it? =.=" and then it goes to "******** LOVES RACHAEL!!!" and then the list goes on and on.. (obviously i editted part of our life. ANYWAYS!) we became GREAT friends. we went for recess together, go out together, study together, sims together, sleep together, bathe together?!?!?!?! HAHAHAHAHA!!! (yes. we're not that... erm... never mind.) and then your dad dont like me.. (awwww...) and then we stopped going out together that often. organised class gathering, but ended up letting your dad pay. =( then came sec 1. we were so happy we're in the same school. but you la! so clever for what? go first class. conitnued going to your house to PLAY!!! ahahahaha! i drifted away from you guys for a little and then joined back with new people then then its back to us again. went out and have fun. go crazy together and did stuffs that were so embarrassing. tried on clothes but never buy them. went into shops just to play and make fun of their accessories. and stuffs like that. and then we got richer. went to restaurants instead of foodcourts. buy clothes that cost us like 50 bucks per piece. haha! then now. im going to your church every alternate sunday cause we're in different school now. we kept in contact. friends that are forever and ever and ever... just like a circle without end. sometimes it felt like i have alot to tell you, but i dont know where to start. its like. we're not talking, but we know so much (hmmm.. probably the bad stuffs like who with who rumour and stuffs like that. LOL!) i APPROVE you to meet knew friends, but i DONT APPROVE you to forget me! haha!! (sounds so.. demanding.) because its way too cool to find parents with the same surname and we live on the same level! (ok.. random..) **(continue below) hello fellow march baby! we're so cool to be born in march not like some other people *cough* (rachael) who's born in *cough cough cough* ....... HAHA! i cant write a very long one for you.. cause rachael wants to be the longest. lolz. so shall keep it short and sweet. yea. MARCH BABIES ARE WAY COOLER THAN *COUGH* haha! knew you since sec 1. classified as the "nerds" =X haha! that was before.. now... its so damn cool la! ok... i forgot what i want to type already.. blame rachael for it ok? cause she talked to me on msn then i forgot all that i wanted to write. haha! anyways. its great to know you. (and your owl-siao-ness) sleepovers, outing, everything. thanks for being there. (we might have slept next to each other when we're born lo.. not like *cough* rachael that came to earth so late.. HAHA!) omg!!! i kept suaning rachael in your part. =XX THANKS FOR EVERYTHING! THANKS FOR COMING INTO MY LIFE AND MAKING IT SUPER FUN AND CRAZY AND I-DONT-KNOW-WHAT ELSE! thanks for your listening ears, (your sighting eyes, your smelling nose, your eating mouth,) your thoughtful brain, to endure my kp-ness, (my ugliness, my BO?!?!, my super huge appetite), and my craziness when i got not enough sleep. LOL!lastly, thanks for today. for all that you have organised. the shabu shabu, the super alot of photos developed. quotes from sunday til saturday with a (heart), the super super long receipt that couldnt fit the chair and dropped on the floor, the small plastic bag with ferrero rocher and the box full of hershey kisses. OH YA! and that pink hairband. and making the "nom nom nom nom nom" voice when im eating fried mars bar. and the "im not going to walk beside you" when i purchased 15 dollars worth of bread. LOL! sorry people if i have left you out.. SORRY! =( but if i were to list out everyone, there will be no end to this post.. haha! i love you guys! LOVED! hearts. Monday, March 08, 2010 i miss you:( i want you in my life. suddenly. random update today. woke up. mrt to seng kang. badminton with shuting. 2 guys came. and borrowed our rackets and court to play. haha! then after that we continued playing. went to kopitiam to eat. ate laksa and the fruits. (whao! so healthy..) then went to shop around. saw mrs lee!!! whats she doing at sengkang? wth. haha! then went to do the children's art painting thing. i took very very long to finish shuting's damn pooh bear. lolz. im not going to look at pooh bear anymore. shuting made a pig for me! haha!! (and the pig is naked. lolz) anyways, then after the painting thing, we got hungry, and we went to long john for another round of dinner! lolz. ate chicken and fish combo. and potato salad! i want to exercise again. but not eat so much. lolz. cabbed home afterwards. finished casandra's birthday card. im not sure if she'll like it, but i put in lots of effort in doing it, its fully dark blue pen and white A4 paper. so its not that nice, but to do a fully pen-drawn (with no outlining with pencil) i really really put in lots of hard work. so i do hope she'll like it. Thursday, March 04, 2010 stay by my side. let me know you'll be there. forever. im not here to update. will be MIA-ING. for the time being. whatever happens. my phone will still be on. contact me via sms. you cared for me? am still in a self denial state. Wednesday, March 03, 2010 you're still there for me. and i'll be there for you if you need me:) long time no blog. have been going MIA for quite sometime. and guess what? im playing dance online and NEOPETS! hahaha!! cannot blame la. im too bored. today. i didnt get any photos. and tell all of you a bad news. i guess im abandoning this blog soon. i wont delete in case i have the mood to blog again. and. i just love my url too much. so im not going to let anyone steal my url. hah! just like "jealousy kills", "running away from reality" is already considered as my quote le. wahaha! so. not going to delete. today went for body check up. thank god im normal! i was so scared that i was diagnosed with something la! cause i drank quite alot of sweetened drinks. people kept telling me to drink plain water before i go for body check up. and for the urine test, i drank 1 500ml of water only. PLAIN WATER! its considered alot already lo. unless in camps, i hardly drink plain water. i think only when im forced to or whatever. so.. yeah! the urine test for negative for all sugar, protein and blood! so freaking happy! xray was normal too. everything IS normal for gabrielle! hooray. (P.S. my lungs look small from the xray. i dont know why!) went back for drills. i got nothing to say about it. =.= blahblahblah. went to tamp to meet vivian. as usual. she's late! im late too. but not as late. lolz. i think i reached at 7.30 or earlier? she reached at 8+. lolz. 1h late clock. haiz. (levi's having sales! for footwear only though. lolz.) went popular to get some stuffs and printer cartridge. =)) she brought me to some restuarant. she say until the food how good how good. so went there and try. ok la.. not too bad. not say until THAT nice also. lolz. taste like those better zi cha stall only. but the price was rather reasonable. didnt take photos cause my battery was going flat. (so idiotic right? before i went out of house, i just unplug it from the charger. then body check up half way, battery dead. then drill that time charge, then going to die again while eating. =.=) went ARCADE afterwards. omg la! played a stupid game. damn hilarious. then played basketball. i win! =) then DDR. i thought i win. cause i jumped more:( and and! 1 swipe = 2 players! we didnt know that. so ended up with 4 games. lolz. the whole arcade left the 2 of us, and they cant chase us out. sad. i know we're the "irritating customers" that me and my working partner used to complain.. "JUST GO HOME LA! STAY SO LONG FOR WHAT? YOU DONT NEED TO REST, WE NEED TO REST ONE LEH!!" lolz. but its not our fault that we dont know the machine ma.. lolz. game finish, sweating like hell. lolz. damn funny. out of tm by 10.30pm. cabbed home, bathe, tv, com, tired. sleeping soon. will be blogging lesser and lesser and tada! GONE! ciao~ Saturday, February 27, 2010 only you knew.. to share my anger, sorrow and happiness with you. oh ya. yesterday night. after ranting and complaining and this and that, igot hungry afterwards. so i opened the fride and took out the cold cold mee and microwaved it! yipee~ *beep beep beep* took out, ate one mouth and brought it back to the kitchen table. seriously!! it taste horrible. i think i throw to my dog and eat, he also wont want lo. lolz. so.. i went back to the fridge, opened and took out the cake (yes. jean's birthday cake. the leftovers.) ater rather happily while watching tv. since it has been so long since i watch tv programmes, so i decided to relax a little, enjoy that sweetness of cake and see whats on. ate quite alot. then commercial break. looked down. OMG!!!! THERE'S MOULD ON THE BOTTOM OF THE CAKE! like.... EWWW!! so i went out, and threw the cake away. im still hungry. but totally lost all my appetite after thinking of the mould-ed cake. so.. i just went back there, lie on my brother's bed. and continued the show. (whatever la! my room no tv so what? =.= my dad took it away ma.. cant be helped right? and nope. not i keep watching never do homework or what lo.. is his room de tv spoil then he koped my tv. T.T) the shor ended and i suddenly remembered dad saying "later pack your room. or at least keep your money. all anyhow throw. tomorrow got people coming." so i literally went to, only, keep my money. HAHA! ok.. then i couldnt sleep.. so i went to count my money!! i got $7.25 of 5 cent coins!! i can go get a macdonalds meal with just my 5 cents already. lolz.. oh yea. and then here comes the pictures i promised some of you..  my 50 bucks notes. my stack of 2 bucks.lolz. totally love my stash of cash. dont try to rob me please. thanks people! haha! shall end of here. bye! will be attending church tomorrow. but wont be sleeping too early today. aww:( |
GABRIELLE♥ " boy, i miss you. " 
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