boy, i miss you.

YOU'RE NOT THERE ANYMORE:(
we're drifting further and further apart.

long time no blog. since i got nothing to do... shall have a simple post. yep. school's been really busy. and i've lesser and lesser time for myself and for you guys. homework, lab reports, presentation, blahblahblah. simply have no time for revision. or rather. when i have time, i rather catch some sleep than revise my work. haha! and i have lesser and lesser time spent with you.
anyways.. this has been bothering me for quite a few years. hmmm... its not really disturbing me, but it sets me thinking. or rather, it made me want to meet you in real life somehow. it might just be my imagination, it might just be some false hope i've created for myself. but in that dream, its seems real. was super super happy, until i wake up and find out that everything isnt there.
its just that.. whenever i feel that no one's there for me, whenever im sad/frustrated/stress til a certain limit, this dream would definitely appear. the same dream. ever since young. i want to know who that person is. i really want to find that person out.
i dont know how to start describing the dream. so i cant really tell you what happen in it. but it's definitely the sweetest thing that ever happened to me. although you're not there with me in real life, but you seem to know everything that is happening in my life. everytime i feel like no one will be there for me, you'll definitely pop out in my dream, to remind me that you'll always be there for me.
(i dont think anyone is still reading my blog, but some people might just... accidently? come to my blog and read this post? i dont know?) anyways. i understand that some people might tell me its some psychological thingy that i've created for myself. or maybe even crappier? my previous life? or whatever crap. but it seems so real. whatever la.. i dont even know what im typing ok? haha! just let me rant here a little longer. i just like the feeling. even if its created by my own psychological thoughts. to know that someone out there still cares for me. will still be by my side. forever:) if i were to meet you in real life, somehow.. all i've got to tell you is "thanks for being in my dream, to cheer me up, to be there for me when no one else is. and i know its not normal for me to say this, but i really love you:)"
oh.. and.. somehow that "person" in my dream reminded me of this song. and when i woke up, i played and replyed it continuosly. thanks alot:) its in my itouch by x factor finalist? you are not alone. went to google for the lyrics and found out that it was originally by michael jackson. the lyrics are uber meaningful. that makes me love you more:) but like i said. it might be just a psycological thing that i've created by myself to make myself feel better. and. fyi. IM NOT CRAZY. IM A NORMAL TEENAGER WHO IS JUST ENCOUNTERING LOADS OF DIFFICULTIES IN MY LIFE. so.. yep. im not mentally retarded, im not crazy, i dont have any needs of seeing a doctor or whatever crap. =.=

Another day has gone, I'm still all alone
How could this be, You are not here with me
You never said goodbye, Someone tell me why
Did you have go, And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself how did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're faraway
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

Just the other night, I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come, And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers, Your burdens I will bear
But first i need you hand then forever can begin

Everyday i sit and ask myself how did love slip away
Something whipers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with with you
Though we're far away
You're always in my heart
For you're not alone

Whipers three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you'll know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're faraway
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're faraway
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone....

so sweet right? haha! never mind.. i should stop fantasizing whoever this is and move on with life:) anyways. this is just a thought. and i think i should share it with you people.
once again.. im not overly stressed or crazy or whatsoever.

~~i feel bad.~~

~~like a bitch.~~

~~when your school reopens,~~

~~you continued talking to me.~~

~~no matter how busy you are.~~

~~no matter how much friends you've made.~~

~~once my school starts.~~

~~we're talking lesser and lesser.~~

~~now, we hardly even talk.~~

~~im sorry:(~~

~~i tried talking to you nowadays.~~

~~but it aint the same no more.~~

~~you wouldnt reply me.~~

~~i know its my fault to not cherish you from the start.~~

~~im really really sorry:(~~

GABRIELLE♥

" boy, i miss you. "

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once again,
you broke my heart..
you'll never understand
the amount of pain
that i've been through..
boy, i need you.
i love you.
but when will you realise that?

you treat me well,
you treat me bad.
i dont understand boy.
what exactly do you want?
either way..
all that i know..
the only thing i know..
is that i miss you:)
no matter what happens,
im going to stay by your side..
forever...

im happy with the lil-est things that you did for me:)
i'll smile because you want me to.
i'll cry if you want me to.
i'll pout for you to care for me.
i'll frown at the things you did,
but i'll turn to you and say i love you.
& thats if you give me the chance....

& the story will go on and on..
til one day we forget each other.

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