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Thursday, April 03, 2008
try nt to read bt i cant control u. wadever. i really really nd sum1 to tok to.its lyk super stressed this yr. prob at hm. prob in skul. prob at aunt's hm. prob wit tuition. prob wit everyting. i shdnt nt elaborate wad probs im stucked with at hm right nw. mayb i would tell. mayb i wouldnt. see hw 1st. its lyk i couldnt really find sum1 to really sit down and tok. or mayb i couldnt trust u or sth lyk tat. bt. its lyk. when i wan to tok to u abt it. coincidentally u will hv other tings to tok to me abt. so. i hv nv had a chance to tok to u at it? mayb i will try to find 1 day, 1 really fine day, where both of us. only us. could really sit down and tok abt it. the rest? i duno? i juz couldnt trust them? mayb i shd try opening up to others. prob in skul. lots of it. if u hv noticed. i had been trying very hard to focus. and had really find time to sit down, nt to play, bt to really study and do my hmwrk. which is rather gd. bt the ting is, when im trying to pull myself up, suddenly all the burden cme to me. its lyk u are alr carrying a 5 kg rice. then no one cme to help. and adds another 5 kg of rice for u to take. all of u are lyk wa! high rank leh. hv u ever tot of hw big the responsibility is? and do u actually find out tat its really diff to really find extra time to rest and play or mayb even go out? hmmm. for u all it seemed easy. all u hv mite nt b wad i hv. i really wan to noe hw ppl could cope wit all the tings going ard them. i really hope tat one day, i can put down all my electronic devices lyk hp or mayb even tv and really start wrking very hard to make tings rite. bt will tis do? i shd try. a 1 day trail. bt is it possible? prob at aunt's hse. yes. i noe i shd b caring abt them. bt. wad can i really do? its lyk since their father is .... ya. then my hse every1 has to take care of them. we had to discipline them. and i had been brain-washing them for lyk hw many yrs? i duno? its lyk we hv to b their "fathers" frm nw on. we hv to discpline them in the sense tat. ya. sum hw take charge of their life? yea. prob wit tuition. yes. i noe i gt alot of assessments. bt. i dun hv time to look at it. dun even tok abt doing it. is lyk. my tuition teacher is willing to spend time to teach me. and gime hmwrk. and help me mrk? bt. i cant really find time? im really very guilty lo. mayb 1 day i shd finish up all my assessment. til where we had stopped. yes. i'll try. and i'll try very hard to achieve tis short term goal for myself. then is lyk. even my bro? lyk. we werent tat close? so i couldnt really tell him my probs? in fact. i couldnt tell any1 at hm my prob. and lately. i couldnt really slp. all thx to my very considerate bro. his hp ring and ring and ring in the midnight. then i duno y? my hse here nw gt trend or sth? ppl keep quarrelling in the middle of the nite. i cant really slp. sad. then pw was ly. !@#$%^& i dun even wish to tok abt it. its lyk. nobdy wanted to cooperate wit u? then lyk. u set tis dateline. then nobdy cared. they gv u anytime they wanted. so. wads the point of hving a dateline then? ok. mayb u tell me u didnt hv time to finish up on time. i've extended. u said ok. on tat day. u didnt send to me still. wth. when i said it was supposed to b handed in to me by mon. every1 agree. til nw. tmr we hv to pass up. i rang up all of u who haven pass up. and u conviently said tat u didnt noe abt it. wad u wan me to do? run to ur hse and box u? and i asked u to print out our grp's report. u said it was too many pgs. waste ur ink. wth?! then u expect me to do everyting? u tink so easy ah? u cme do la. i really hope u didnt do the speech card and i'll see hw u explain to every1. gdluck tmr man. and til nw. im still waiting for 1 more person who haven send me his/her part. and i haven revise for my phy test which is tmr? hw am i suppose to cope? |
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